Sometimes it seems like experiences, rather than filling a void, only expose a cavity that was hiding in the dark. A longing you never knew you had (or perhaps you know you never should have). A dream you know will never come to pass. A moment of ephemeral bliss that was never meant to last.
The other day Cherie said something interesting that resonates along this thread. Apparently,
"...some scientists claim there is no such thing as tears of happiness. ... They explain that it takes enormous energy to repress our tears. Then seeing the happiness of others, pent-up sadness and anxiety are discharged. In life, happy endings are the exception, and when one occurs, it stirs up anxieties about the past...the real world isn't as happy as the one we want to see."So when we cry because of something beautiful, or wonderful, it's because of some deep-seated longing that can never be fulfilled. Somewhere during the process of maturation, cavities for Prince Charmings and Happily Ever Afters (or in my case, perfect prima ballerina assolutas) are created but will not likely be filled. We don't cry because we're happy. We cry because there's a cavity that never got filled.
And if there's an emotion that alerts us to our cavities, it's loneliness.
nice post haha =)
ReplyDeletei didn't know you started blogging again!! YIPPPEEEE! :) your writings are always good reading - poignant and thought-provoking :)
ReplyDeleteanyway, this 'cavity' thing does strike a chord, i guess it is this combined feeling of happiness and yearning for something you think you can never attain. ://
:) Nice post. I ennjoyed reading it. I should get down to blogging more often.
ReplyDeletethank you!
ReplyDeleteoh and sze, I didn't know you were such a prolific blogger until I saw all the blogs on your profile! Heh. maybe that makes you a profilic blogger.